Try my way:
-have to do things
-dont do it or do it partially
-want to kill myself for a while because i feel a worthless piece of shit who cant accomplish anything, even the things that i care and would benefit my future
-forget how shit you felt after like 1-2 days because you had a random moderatly good day caused by the weight of previuosly mentioned things to do going away after you failed them
-feel good until new thing
-repeat
I think every army that had to defend their home country would have preferred doing other things, and until 2022 i honestly tought that invasions were a thing of the past, at least in Europe. Russia showed otherwise, now i think that being capable of defending yourself is important. You dont have to have a ginormous army like the US but you have to be enough of a threat that somebody would think twice before attacking.